Friday, June 27, 2008
This evening, for the first time in my life, I deliberately killed a living creature. It was laying there bold as life in the middle of my neighbor's driveway. The only weapon I had, and a handy one it was indeed, was my car. I had to drive over it 10 times before I was finally satisfied that it was dead. I felt GREAT satisfaction. That is one MF rattlesnake that will not crawl into my yard this summer!!!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Re-connected with an old friend this week. I just LOVE when that happens. It makes you re-examine yourself. Her name is Sandy and she lives in a wonderful little town in Oregon...she's got the mountains AND the ocean. While trying to tell her in less than an hour why I came to Montana, I got bogged down in the details of HOW I came to be here. I neglected to mention the most important reason. I was born a country girl in Alberta. Of course I was drawn to the city. Couldn't wait to leave the damn prairies. Youth always requires what it doesn't have. I spent 35 years in urbania, living an exciting life meeting incredible people, traveling to exotic places, making music with some of the best, but there was always that pull back to the country. I'm really Ferdinand in the flowers. THAT's really why I'm here. I am intensely delighted when that doe in the pasture behind my house finally lets me get a glimpse of her new fawn. The lilacs around my house perfume the evenings and when they're gone, I wait impatiently for my peonies to bloom. They're opening as we speak! The mountain snows melting have turned the normal lazy turns of the Bitterroot River into a rushing swishing singing torrent. That's what excites me now.
"Love to throw yourself on the earth and kiss it. Kiss the earth and love it with an unceasing, consuming love."
I wish I could learn to love myself the way I love the earth that spawned me.
Friday, June 20, 2008
So...Catherine tells me I should move out of my comfort zone. Makes me think of just what a comfort zone is. Must be a comfortable place eh?...and so it is. So, why, after I have developed such a peaceful place, should I leave it?
Think I'll stay here.
Quote for the day:
"To be enlightened is to lighten up."
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Up at S's this morning to take care of the pets, Dylan's Jack of Hearts on the radio. Crossing the ditch bank I notice a dead rattler in the water. Good place for a rattler. Maybe drowned in the recent high water. Behind the barn I saw my second Western Tanager of the season. Some years ya don't see any and then wow! Up at the house there was an eagle riding the thermals over the meadow with a flock of cowbirds twittering away nervously in the bushes below. Must have nests there. Back in the car, Jack of Hearts just winding down...all in all a good start to my Saturday.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Seems that these days, I only sing enough of a song to remember how it goes, refresh the chords in my memory and to prove to myself that I could sing it if I wanted to. Then I lose interest. May be 'cause when there ain't ears to hear, the tree falling in the forest may just as well be silent.